Caroline Myss has an audio called Spiritual Madness. Here are some of my notes from the talk:
– My job is to not lose my spirit over fear of change, chaos.
– Test: when you can be grateful when it’s very tough to be, when you’re empty.
– Endurance: the capacity to look at a challenge and say I’m not the least bit frightened. Makes your soul come up to the surface.
– One day you will realize: I don’t know where I’m going, but I don’t feel lost.
– The discipline of bringing wealth into your life
– being loving when you don’t feel loved.
– Expect thoughts of suicide. Expect to come to death’s door… What dies is the part of you that wants your life to be other than what it is.
Following is a conversation Janwillem van de Wetering had, which led him to adventures in a zen monastery in Japan. (more on this in the next entry)
“I want to be quite sure. I want to be absolutely certain that life on Earth serves a purpose, because as long as I am not certain I am not content and that’s putting it mildly. I sometimes get so depressed, and everything around and in me becomes so utterly hopeless, that there’s nothing I can do, except lie down and feel cramps in my stomach.”
“Yes,” the professor said kindly, “Depression. A well-known phenomenon. Can lead to suicide. Most unpleasant.”
“But how do I get rid of the depression? Do you know?”
“Yes,” the professor said, and filled his pipe, “Manual therapy may help and psychoanalysis, of course, but if you ask me, most of it is useless for treating your sort of affliction. What you have is what all mystics have had, and the only way of solving your problem is to join a mystic training. Go to a monastery, find a master, an adept who has finished his training, and he’ll cure you or you’ll cure yourself.”
Janwillem van de Wetering, The Empty Mirror