The Light Side of Alone

It is easier to sail many thousands of miles through cold and storm and cannibals, in a government ship, with five hundred men and boys to assist one, than it is to explore the private sea, the Atlantic and Pacific Ocean of one’s being alone.
Henry David Thoreau, Walden

… I exulted to hear Burnie Byers over the radio telling all his lookouts to come down that very day. The season was over… Sixty sunsets had I seen revolve on that perpendicular hill. The vision of the freedom of eternity was mine forever… And suddenly it seemed I saw that unimaginable little Chinese bum standing there, in the fog, with that expressionless humor on his seamed face… It was Japhy who had advised me to come here and now though he was seven thousand miles away in Japan answering the meditation bell… he seemed to be standing on Desolation Peak by the gnarled old rocky trees certifying and justifying all that was here.
“Japhy,” I said out loud, “I don’t know when we’ll meet again or what’ll happen in the future, but Desolation, Desolation, I owe so much to Desolation, thank you forever for guiding me to the place where I learned all. Now comes the sadness of coming back to cities and I’ve grown two months older and there’s all that humanity of bars and burlesque shows and gritty love, all upsidedown in the void God bless them, but Japhy you and me forever we know, O ever youthful, O ever weeping.” Down on the lake rosy reflections of celestial vapor appeared, and I said “God, I love you” and looked up to the sky and really meant it. “I have fallen in love with you, God. Take care of us all, one way or the other.”
Jack Kerouac, The Dharma Bums 
 [this excerpt is about his 2 months working alone in the high Sierras as a fire lookout for the U.S. Forest Service.]

In Liberation, you stand alone. You stand alone because you need no supports of any kind. You need no supports because you have realized that the very notion of a separate you no longer exists; that there is nothing to support; that the whole ego experience was a flimsy illusion. So you stand alone but never lonely because everywhere you look, all you see is That, and You are That.

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